I Wish I Had Known…
It was one of those mornings. My plan was to piddle around the house, catching up on cleaning. Knowing this, I brushed my teeth, washed my face and changed into comfy lounge pants and a t-shirt. I pulled my hair up in a bun and I was done. I wouldn’t see anyone today, therefore there was no need for make-up and all that stuff.
In a short time, I was on my back porch, sweeping. I walked back in the house to find a message from someone letting me know they were on their way to my house to take care of a few things I had requested. Geez. Now what?
They were ten minutes away. I could rush around, change clothes and become presentable. Or I could laugh and go about my day. I chose the latter.
That day, several people came to my house, all for different reasons. I just laughed. A few years ago, that would have really stressed me out. But I have learned a few things. And, I have come to a place of peace in my life and my surroundings. I won’t allow just anything to pull me out of that place.
So, they saw me without make-up, they will survive. And so will I.
I have learned to not let a five-minute challenge ruin my entire day. I have learned to laugh things off. I have learned to find humor in myself. I have learned what used to be a big deal is just a passing moment. And I have learned to relax.
People are often so uptight these days. They let little things ruin their day, even their week. Why? What is the purpose or the fruit in that?
One day this week, a UPS truck pulled out in front of me. I almost hit him. And it was his fault. I didn’t blast my horn at him, I just stopped. When I looked at him, he had the biggest grin on his face. He waved and said, “SORRY!” I smiled and waved back. It was not that dramatic, no need for drama. If I stay in peace and he stays in peace, the world is a better place for a moment.
In this day and time, we have road rage. Political rage. Gender rage. So much anger in the world, but friend, we can change that. How? By refusing to be a part of it. By refusing to let it get inside us. By staying in peace, regardless of what is going on around us.
So, what do I wish I knew?
I wish I knew when I was younger, what I know now.
I wish I knew to laugh at my own mistakes. To not take myself so seriously. I wish I knew then that laughter is good medicine.
I wish I knew not to dwell on the challenging stuff, but to keep my eyes firmly on God. I wish I knew then that my God would keep me in perfect peace, if I keep my eyes and mind on Him. I wish I had refused to allow a short-term challenge to affect my entire day.
I wish I realized when people are being unkind, most of the time, they are hurting. I wish I knew that, and I wish I would have been more kind and less defensive.
I wish I knew I did not need all the answers today. To instead, just keep walking and keep trusting God. I wish I had known all that. But I didn’t.
Today, I know more than I did back then. Thank God! For that reason, I didn’t rush to the bathroom, and hastily put on make-up. I didn’t become anxious because I wasn’t prepared. I didn’t make them feel unwelcome, or like they were messing up my plan. Instead, I put a big smile on my face and said, “come on in, so nice of you to come by today.”
Now, I know I said I wish I knew more back then, and that is true. But more than that, I thank God for the place He has brought me to today. A place of confidence. A resting place. A place of peace and a place of laughter. A place of genuine kindness and mercy. For that I am thankful.
Meditate on this:
Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. Col. 3:2